Taming that jealous heart

For the longest time ever I have always wanted an Apple MacBook Pro and a DSLR. Last year I managed buying myself the DSLR since I was traveling to my favorite-est place in the entire wide-wide world. The Apple MacBook Pro still sits on the top of my things that I need to buy. Out of nowhere the brother decided to gift the sister a MacBook Pro for her birthday. For various reasons that particular idea simply didn’t go down well. The very first thought that came to my mind was she doesn’t deserve it and I need it.

While all this was happening, I was travelling with a huge lump in my throat. I sat pondering on my reaction to all of this. I kept telling myself I’m NOT jealous, cause I deserved to be gifted the Apple MacBook Pro. But obviously I was plain jealous. Contemplating over it all I thought- What kind of a Christian am I? Whatever happened to the Christian values I have been taught over and over again? Am I ‘practicing what I preach’? Is ‘jealousy’ what I teach the kids at Sunday school? Where is the notion of ‘loving unconditionally’? God didn’t ask if I deserved it or not. He just died on the cross for me. Irrespective of my sins and blemishes. He didn’t care about whether I needed (deserved) to be freed from sins or not.


Proverbs 14:30 –

A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones.